WOOOOOOT!! ROADTRIP!!!

So excited!!!! I thought I would update before I left. I'm all ready and packed. This is going to be awesomeness!!!

So last night 12 brought me and my friend some of his fried chicken. He didn't stay sadly, but I webcamed with him for the first time last night. It was fun. I'm going to miss him. Our hotel has WiFi, so I will be able to stay connected. That doesn't mean I will be updating. lol!

Tomorrow my nephew has surgery so I would ask that you guys would pray for him and my sister. I would very much appreciate it.

Well I'm going to go!! I'll ttyl!!

I gots a new hair cut!!!

yay... That's pretty much all the news I have. lol! 2 Days until the road trip!! So excited. I got some new clothes today. Probably going to use them in my senior pictures!!!

Yup... That's pretty much it. I've just been getting ready for this trip. My friend is that is coming with us is spending the night tomorrow night, so I can't wait until then! This is going to be great. So ready to get out of here. But the only bad thing is that the day after we leave my nephew has a major surgery. My Nephew is 5. This is his 5th or 6th surgery since he's been born.I would appreciate it if you all would say a little prayer for him that day.

Well I should get going and finish packing! TTYL!!

Hey everybody! How are you doing? Good I hope!

So I've been good. Really good! Really happy! I just spent the whole morning cleaning my mom's car with 12 today. It was fun! We had a great time. After we were done we just sat in the living room for two hours just talking. I loved it. He also let me have his sunglasses. It's funny how a pair of sunglasses can make you so happy.....

12 and I have been talking a lot. It was great. We talked so much on Thursday. I was a really good day. Besides Michael Jackson and Farrah Fawcett dying. RIP GUYS!!!

But yeah. I've been really happy. *sigh* He makes he happy.....

But on a not happy note... You know Robert?? My use to be best guy friend that got his girlfriend pregnant? Well yesterday my friend told me that he stopped by her house to talk. She said he said that if I would have went out with him none of this stuff happening to him would have happened. WHAT THE FUCK?! (sorry about the lang) Its not my fault that I'm a good friend that didn't want to lead you on, and lie to you!

It's bad enough that I blame myself sometimes. UGH! This makes me so mad! I miss him so much! But 12 told me he would beat him up for me, so it made he feel a little bit better...

I leave on my road trip in 4 days!! Really excited! I'm going to take lots of pictures!!! I'm kinda tired cuz I'm living on 3 hours of sleep today. I'll ttyl!!

I had such an amazing night at my groups little prom! So much fun! I stayed up all night!!! I was up for over 24 hours. As soon as I got home I went to SLEEP! Ahahaha!!!

But last night was the first night I saw 12 since church camp. I was doing so good with my feelings about him and now once again its all down the drain. Well not all.... I still like him. Even if its wrong and I shouldn't.... I had my first slow dance. It was with 12. I slow danced with him about 2 or 3 times. God I loved it. I felt so right to be in his arms.....

But just the dancing part of last night was really the only time I felt this way. When it was the sleepover he was trying to keep me make. It was funny. The whole night was pretty much apples to apples, guitar hero, and rock band. 12 was on drum, his brother was vocals, and I was lead guitar. We dominated! It was fun. Paying guitar was pretty much the only thing that kept me awake.

Well I can't really explain to you how amazingly fun my night was! I had a great time dancing and being silly. OMG I was soo slap happy it was crazy! lol! Well I'm going to find something to eat since all I ate yesterday was a bologna sandwich and a plate of mac n cheese and little winnies. I need to eat more.... lol

Hey Guys! I've been supper busy lately! But oh so happy! :]

Well lets see Monday night I spent the night at my friend's house. Then the next day we went to Cracker Barrel for lunch, with a few of her other friends. Then we went to the mall for a bit. After that we went and saw Up.

Oh my goodness... That movie was AMAZING!!!!!!! It made me cry two times. And I hardly cry during movies. It was great. But Cars is still my favorite!!!!

Then after all that I come home and find out I'm leaving right away to go to my sister's house. I had to sleep on the floor in a completely different room away from my mom cuz she was snoring so loud. So I'm really tired and really sore. I'm so glad I get to sleep in my own bed tonight!

Today I went to St. Louis and spent my day in Children's Hospital cuz my nephew had a minor surgery. We didn't get the news that we wanted, but its not horrible news. I just think that the adults are over reaction myself... But everything will work out.

Speaking of hospitals I love being there. I know its crazy but I love hospitals. I hate being in waiting rooms and all that crap but there is something about hospitals that makes me dream big. I want to be a doctor so bad I can almost taste it. I have figured out where I want to go to school. I want to go to UMKC. Its a VERY good medical school. I would also be saving time by skipping pre-med. I would still be in my home state. I know people that live up there, and I would have a church to go to! Its the prefect place! I just doubt myself sometimes. Like I feel like I'm not smart enough....

But anyway. Tomorrow I'm going to my youth leaders house to play our Youth Sunday. The Youth is doing the whole service on Sunday. We are going to rock the socks off the old people!!!

The Friday I have my drama teams 2 year anniversary. We are having a prom. I'm excited, but nervous. Its the first time I'm going to see 12 since church camp. Church camp has really helped me get over 12. But as soon as I got home my mom was telling me about 12. And this time I'm not ignoring her. 1) Because this is serious 2) I'm feelings are not blocking my judgment.

12 has been going to local strip clubs and getting drunk. I know some people that care if people go to strip clubs, but it bother me. And I know someone that works there and she is only working there so she can buy food for her daughter.... I also don't have a problem with drinking. But I don't think you should drink just to get drunk.....

So I've been praying for him cuz that's all I can do. I care for him, cuz he is my friend. So I'm going to try and get through to him!

Well that's pretty much it! I'm going to bed cuz I'm supper tired! I'll ttyl!!