Woot! I'm back! I got back home yesterday! I'm so tired and sore, but I'm so HAPPY!!! Church camp was a life changing experience. God has changed my life for the better. I'm all in for him now.

I take the ACT this morning. I'm kinda freaking out cuz I'm really tired and not supper focused. But I know God is going to help me! Well I'm going to go! TTYL!!

I'm leaving for church camp tomorrow morning!! I won't be back until Friday! I'll miss all you!! But I know this is going to be good for me! TTYL!
LOVE YOU ALL!!
BYE!

I Lady Gaga!

Anyway! I didn't have a real title and I'm listening to Poker Face so yea. Instant Title!

I would just like to say. Sorry for the last journal. I was kinda upset, and didn't know how to explain my feelings and song seemed to be the best was to express my confusing emotions.

Well my summer is going great. A week until I leave for church camp!! So excited! I need to get out of this town! I had my first day of band camp. It was pretty cool. It was mostly boring, since I've been doing this for 4 years now. But I meet this cute freshmen. Its not a big deal or anything. I just think he's cute. Maybe it is a chance of me to get past 12....

Speaking of 12 today was his 21st birthday. I made cupcakes for him. It was fun. He stayed at the house for a while and we just talked. God, I love just how I can sit in a room with him, talk about nothing, and be so happy. Its crazy. Last week I so mad at him for giving me mixed signals. I needed some space. And I wasn't getting any. I almost gave up facebook just so I could get away from him.

Well today my feelings are totally different. After he left all I could do was miss him and think about him. I still like him. And I don't know what to think or do! Its like a need to get away from him, but I miss being away from him! Emotions are so complicating...

Well that's pretty much it. I'm loving life (for the most part)!!!! I get to see Jeff Dunham his Thursday, so I'm excited! I guess I'll ttyl!!

Say you're sorry, that face of an angel
Comes out just when you need it to
As I paced back and forth all this time
Cause I honestly believed in you

Holding on, the days drag on
Stupid girl, I should have known
I should have known

I'm not a princess, this ain't a fairy tale
I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet
Lead her up the stairwell

This ain't Hollywood, this is a small town
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down
Now it's too late for you and your white horse, to come around

Baby I was naive, got lost in your eyes
And never really had a chance
I had so many dreams about you and me
Happy endings, now I know

I'm not a princess, this ain't a fairy tale
I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet
Lead her up the stairwell

This ain't Hollywood, this is a small town
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down
Now it's too late for you and your white horse, to come around

And there you are on your knees
Begging for forgiveness, begging for me
Just like I always wanted but I'm so sorry

Cause I'm not your princess, this ain't a fairytale
I'm gonna find someone someday who might actually treat me well
This is a big world, that was a small town
There in my rearview mirror disappearing now

And its too late for you and your white horse
Now its too late for you and your white horse, to catch me now

Oh, whoa, whoa, whoa
Try and catch me now
Oh, it's too late to catch me now

OMG!!! Like the title says today is the best day of my life!!!!!!!!!! Okay, now let me begin!

Today started like any other day. Well except it was the last day of school. I had finished my AP US History essay, so everything was good. I took the AP US History final and now I'm done with AP US History FOREVER!!!! And I'm out for the summer!! WOOT!

The day I started to get better after the bell rang and I became an official senior. I turned in my last book and I was on my way to the parking lot where my mom was to pick me up. Well I walk outside and my friend starts yelling my name and I see my mom with a camera. I walk closer and see my mom with a camera. And then... I SEE A LIMO!!!! And then I see 12 walking towards me with a dozen roses and all dressed up!!!

We all get in the limo and 12 gets out sparking grape juice and whine glasses. It was awesome. We took pictures and it was so much fun!! After all this my mom took me to red lobster (my fav restaurant). When we got home we had a package. It was a hoodie that my mom got special made for me!!

BEST DAY EVER!!!!

So I'm pretty sure this summer is going to be amazing!! I can't wait! But on a kinda down side all my feeling for 12 are still there. I sill like him. And seeing him today was just... I don't know how to explain it. But I still like him. And I'm still hopeful that we have a chance.

Well that's it! I just wanted to share this amazing day with all of you!

HAPPY SUMMER EVERYONE!!!!